FYI – This post is copy heavy as I want to fill you on some recent realizations & changes. But don’t worry – the fun & crafty posts are following close behind!
I am ALWAYS busy. I enjoy it. I don’t try and be busy, the busy just finds me. Usually I don’t even realize how busy things were until I look back at the week. I don’t intend to schedule something for every day but by Sunday its no wonder the house is a mess – it was busy week!
When trying to find time to meet with a friend I usually hear, “you let me know when your free, you are always so busy.” But from my point of view that isn’t the case. My ‘free’ days may fill with petty errands or projects & if i have a spare moment – I’ll use it – but nothing is more important than time with my friends and family.
That was my NORMAL until this summer. It had been that way forever and it worked for me (hopefully for my friends and family would agree)
This summer however I realized that I may have gone out a little too deep into the pool of busyness. I felt it coming but thought it was maybe that one week got out of hand and that my usual “busy” would return. It didn’t…. the strong – yet enjoyable – busyness tide was sweeping me deeper little by little.
I was driving home from a busy day at work one day and realized exactly what I felt like. It was like my swim floating were just a little too deflated to support my weight. I was just keeping up with all my projects. Each should have been fun and enjoyable yet I felt pressure to finish them and none were as fabulous as I had hoped. Nothing was getting the attention it needed including my family, household and friends.
A dear friend asked when we could have dinner and I honestly had to look out 2 weeks. I couldn’t tell you the last time I cooked a full dinner for my family or really cleaned the house. Not one to get stressed too often, I was really feeling out of sorts. I didn’t like that one bit.
So by now I knew something had to change, but wasn’t sure what or how or when. Then came time for Mama’s Happy set up. I had to take a day and a half vacation to get my space set up but it looked pretty cute and I had more inventory than in the past ! YAY!! YET it wasn’t as complete as I had seen it in my mind and I was a little disappointed in myself. BOO!
Then I got one more ‘sign’ from the Berenstain Bears (kids shows are good at getting messages to adults too!!) I was watching an episode with my sweet boy and the Berenstain family was over scheduled. At one point, Mama breaks down in tears and they realize the need to give some thing up. Their words of wisdom were fully received: “Doing is something, but overdoing is something else.” By reevaluating their schedule they were able to enjoy things more “now we have time to do what most families do; play together, visit friends and sometimes do nothing at all!”
WATCH IT: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDlijFMvvLA
But what was I going to do? I love everything I do. I don’t want to give anything up!
So if I’m not giving things up how about cutting back. After lots of thinking (the only reason I am thankful for my 40 min commute to/from work each day – well that and my reading list is much shorter from listening to audio books) AND after chatting with the my inspiring friend and Head Mama I decided:
My role at Mama’s Happy would change. I LOVE that store, the projects and most of all the MAMA’s – there is no way I wanted to leave. Thankfully I was told I wan’t ALLOWED to leave :-) So, I am still a Mama! You will still see me there every 2nd Wednesday of the month. You will still see pictures of new items and hear of exciting things at the store. Only difference is that I won’t be stocking a space each month. I will be helping with things behind the scenes or wherever another pair of hands are needed.
Seems to be a little change but the weight that has been lifted can already be felt. I don’t even need floaties anymore.
So here we go – back at it again with a new energy and less pressure. GET READY!!
**Thank you to my friends and family for always being patient with my new projects & crazy schedule! You are always my priority & I hope you know that.
*** A SPECIAL thank you to my friend Sarah. Without seeing much of each other or even talking often, she noticed something was a little off and reached out to check on me. THANK YOU!!! your little voice mail mean allot to me!
I hope you are all finding the balance that is right for you. Days go too quick my friends; we need to remember to take a breath every now and again.